..ready to share..

This post is more of a GET IT OFF MY CHEST/READY TO SHARE post!! Sooooooo, i'm not trying to sound selffish or anything, because I know there are people out there that are NOT ABLE to experience the whole "pregnancy" thing, and enjoy the "JOYS" of giving birth to your own child, and bringing that little spirit into this CRAZY WORLD...trust me, if I could, I would be a surrogate for some of you, but with how sick I get, I just can't!! :(

Moving on, as of right now, I have 3 children....2 girls, & my lil' man! In late July, I missed my period, and took a HPT which turned out to be positive! I wasn't sure, so i did like 4 more tests, and they all turned out positive!! And no, I didn't spend all my money on those pricey tests, I just went to the DOLLAR TREE here, and they sell pregnancy tests for only $1....and when you go to THE WOMEN'S CLINIC here, they use the EXACT same test too! The nurse there told me that if I get a positive on one of them cheapy tests, it's most likely to be right....so I took her up on it! So it was confirmed that I was pregnant, and was due to give birth in March 2011. I was excited!!! I LOVE BABIES, always have, since I was a little girl. Anyways, it was August, I hadn't been to a doctor yet because I was waiting for my medicaid card to come in the mail, and me & my 3 kids were getting ready to fly to UTAH for my cousin's wedding. As soon as AUGUST came, I noticed that I had started spotting a little....then spotting ALOT....then FULL ON bleeding. So on Sunday, August 8, 2010, my husband took me in to the emergency room just to check if everything was ok. I already thought I lost the baby, but when they did an ultrasound(which I couldn't even watch) they told me that everything was ok, baby was fine, and had a heartbeat! WHEW, i was somewhat relieved, but was still very ADAMANT about taking my trip to UTAH to be with MY FAMILY!

Ofcourse, before we left the hospital, my husband had me ask the doctor if it was still ok for ME to fly in my condition....mind you, MY HUSBAND WAS TOTALLY AGAINST ME EVEN GOING, which is very understandable! Anyways, the nurse told me that it should be just fine, as long as I stay hydrated during the flight, because with the cabin pressure of the plane, I can get really dehydrated, and that is not a good thing! So, the next morning, we were scheduled to depart KANSAS CITY, and before my husband left for work, he begged me not to go one last time, but I SAID "NO"...and it's probably something that I'll never forgive myself for EVER!!!!!!!! So we left MISSOURI, heading for UTAH...and i followed the nurse's advice about staying hydrated during the flight. As soon as we landed in UTAH, i just had a bad feeling that something was going to go very wrong!! We met my mom by the baggage claim, and started on our way to their home in OREM, which is, depending on traffic, about a 45min drive from the airport. So, as we were driving, I started having light contractions...and I thought, OH NO, please don't do this!!!!! The bumpy roads weren't helping it AT ALL either, so you can only imagine how i felt. As soon as we pulled into my parents driveway, I opened my door, stood up to get out of the car...but as soon as I stood up, blood just came gushing out all over my legs....(sorry, TMI, i know!!!) All I said to my mom was, "MOM, YOU NEED TO TAKE ME TO THE ER, NOW!!!" But ofcourse I wasn't gonna go with all that blood all over me, so I went inside to wash off and change my clothes. To make a long story short, we spent the whole evening in the ER, mostly just waiting for doctors to show up, but when they did a vaginal ultrasound, they found NO HEARTBEAT anymore :( At the time, the only thing I could think of was, OH NO, MY HUSBAND IS GOING TO BE SO UPSET WITH ME!!!! WHAT HAVE I DONE??!!??!! I couldn't even work up the courage to call him and tell him what happened...i had to text my sis-in-law and have her tell him for me!!! He did not want to talk to me, in fact, didn't want me to COME BACK!!! But in the early morning hours the next day, he called me and we cried together on the phone...he was very hurt, and I don't blame him for being upset with me!!! He was able to forgive me, and we talked things over....we now plan to TRY and make a trip out to UTAH every year to visit the resting spot of our ANGEL BABY, which BTW, is at my parents home!! (The doctor said that I PASSED everything in the ER, but the next day, I passed something that WAS NOT A BLOOD CLOT....so I got a little trinket box and buried it in parent's backyard!!!)

Anyhow, I NEVER, EVER, EVER thought it would ever happen to me!!! But it did....and some days, I regret taking that trip!! My mom later told me that I could have called the airline and had my ticket changed with NO FEES charged if I had notice from my doctor, WHICH I WISH I HAD KNOWN SOONER, but what can we do??!!? I will always remember my lil' ANGEL baby!!! And now, I am 17 weeks pregnant again, this time, everything is going well!! I find out what I'm having on the 30th of this month, due to give birth in MAY 2011...so we're excited!!!

~THE LATEST~

There are a few things that have happened in the last month or so that I haven't BLOGGED!!!

1. Our middle child, LILIANI, turned 4 yrs old on Veteran's Day, November 11.
2. We had a GREAT THANKSGIVING meal with my husband's family here in MISSOURI!! (but I miss having my mom's cooking, lol)
3. We figured we'd go check out Walmart at midnite on BLACK FRIDAY, and let's just say, NEVER AGAIN, LOL!!
4. On THANKSGIVING DAY, it was also our 5-year anniversary of marriage...
5. We, along with our kids, spent a day/night at a hotel for our anniversary! The kids had so much in the pool, haha!

Yeah, it's been a pretty busy month, KINDA, haha! Anyways, that's the happs FOR NOW....till next time!!

..failure..

LOL, what a complete FAILURE!!! I couldn't even finish my 30-day challenge...my computer time was more-so used for other sites, such as: #1-FACEBOOK, #2-FACEBOOK, & #3-FACEBOOK!!! how terrible is that?? it's actually pretty embarrassing if you ask ME....my time could be well spent doing other PRODUCTIVE things, like helping my 4yr old learn her numbers, ABC's, write her name, and stuff like that....or, spend time with my son teaching him the same things, or at least getting a HEADSTART on it anyway! i can't blame the pregnancy, because all I would have to do is sit in front of a computer & BLOG...haha! anyways, LIFE GOES ON right?? ;)

DAY #8 (short term goals for this month & why)

hmmmmmmmmm, that would probably have to be FINISHING THIS BLOG CHALLENGE that i've started, LOL!! that is one of them...another would be to be a BETTER, LOVING MOTHER to my kids!!

didn't think it would be so difficult, LMBO!!

OH-EM-GEE...the last time i posted was almost a week ago, and that was DAY #7 of my blog challenge I've been trying to do, haha. I've got 6 days that I need to catch up on...Before I even started that challenge, and the reason WHY i even started it, is because I told myself, "Self, you are no longer going to be a slacker ANYMORE!! We are going to start this blog challenge, finishing it in exactly 30 days." Well, not that I CAN'T still finish it in 30 days, its just the fact that I also told myself that i would get on and post a blog once-a-day!! So here are my EXCUSES.....

1. I'M PREGNANT.....nuff sed!! haha
2. I have 2 kids under the age of 5 that belong to me, PLUS, another 2 more under the age of 3, that DO NOT belong to me that I have to watch during the day, so that makes 4 kids all under the age of 5, you figure it out....yup, THIS reason alone should explain my SLACKING huh?? lol
3. It's not like I don't get on the computer....it's just that I spend more time on FB!! (something that needs to become a part of my "new years resolution!! haha)
4. I get real LAZY....you should see my room!! I, along with my kids, took a trip to UTAH back in AUGUST!! Yeah, our room is still a HUGE MESS from then...and mind you, I'm a person that ABSOLUTELY, POSITIVELY, CANNOT STAND messy rooms, houses, cars, or anything like that!!!!
5. And last, but not least, when I was just READING the blog challenge, I thought to myself, ahhhhhhhhh, this will be a BREEZE!!! psssshhhhh, yah right!! i hate posting pics of myself, and all that stuff....but I HAVE TO FINISH IT, I'M NOT GONNA QUIT!!! Sooooo, now that I've given my excuses, I will catch up with my blog, and hope you enjoy!!! ;)

DAY #7: (pic of something/someone that has a big impact on you)

These 4 people down below are the people that make a BIG IMPACT on me because I don't know where exactly I would be if I didn't have them in MY LIFE!! They are the reason I wake up every morning (even though some mornings it's a little earlier than I'd like), but hey, I wouldn't change that for anything. I guess we're doing a pretty good job if Heavenly Father is trusting us with another one of His choice SPIRITS in the next 6 months :)

Ma'atoe (18months)

Kacey (10yrs)

Liliani (4yrs)

the LOVE OF MY LIFE!!

--playing CATCH-UP--

DAY #5: (a picture of somewhere i've been too)

ok, soooooooooo here's the thing though....i've been here MANY times, being that I was born & raised in the next town over!! buuuuuuuuuut, I haven't had the chance to go in and actually do a "session", which is what I really would {LOVE} to do someday! However, I am a very proud member of The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter Day Saints, and wouldn't have it any other way!!! <3




DAY #6: (fav. superhero & why?)

hmmmmmmmmm, that would have to be THE GREAT MAN "UPSTAIRS"!!! Without him, there would be NO US!!

..what would YOU do??..

ok...just so we're totally CLEAR on this post, it has absolutely NOTHING, and I mean NOTHING, to do with ME!! haha, just had to get that straight! however, it is a true story of a close friend of mine(who, I'm sure they would rather remain ANONYMOUS), and it makes me angry, so I had to do a VENT post...oh come on now, we all have days when we just want to vent, and can't really vent directly TO SOMEONE, so we turn to our blog ;)

anyways, so i have this friend...we'll call her Annie! Annie has been married to her husband, Andy, for almost 5 years now! They have a child that is 4yrs old together...everything seemed all fine & dandy, they seemed REALLY happy, like a family should be. Up until recently that is...see, Andy had to move out-of-state due to "business" reasons! Annie was fine with their child, taking care of the two them, and making sure that Andy was ok too. Andy, was supposedly taking care of his "business" out where he was at...but now that they were hundreds of miles apart, they had ALOT MORE fights than usual, and it just made things that much HARDER! So one of those fights that they had, was a really bad one....so bad, that Andy just stopped calling Annie altogether for almost 2 whole weeks. Annie decided that it would be best for her to drive out there and just SHOW UP, and surprise him and see what was going on, and also to make sure that he was doing the things he needed to be doing. She had everything planned and ready to go...literally, she booked a car, a hotel, and planned out their whole time together. But something came up, and sadly, she had to cancel her "surprise" trip to see her hubby. So since Andy never called her at all, she decided she would be the BIGGER person, and just give him a call, and tell him about what she WAS going to do...he was sad, because he really wanted to see Annie & their child. So they solved whatever problems they had, and everything was BACK TO NORMAL..................................or so Annie thought!

Annie & Andy, once again, got into a HUGE FIGHT this time...and he told her that he was sick & tired of her always paying the bills for her parents and what not...LAME EXCUSE! He then TEXTED her(the MANLY thing to do), and told her "I HAVE FALLEN OUT OF LOVE WITH YOU!" So, now my question is........................what would YOU do if your ETERNAL COMPANION, the person you thought you would spend the REST OF YOUR LIFE & more with, tells you something like that??????? I wanna know!!!

...DAY #4...

there are probably MORE than just ONE habit I wish I didn't have, hehe! but first things first...like most, or maybe just SOME of us, I kinda wish I didn't have the "just because we have money, i'll go & spend it now" habit!! lol...that is my #1 WORST habit of all time...ask my husband! I will find any reason to spend what little money we may have left, whether it be for myself, or for my kids, or just for fun...I {heart} $$$$$$!!!! haha

(that is a pic of MY SON on that $1,000 bill, haha)

~DAY #3~

hmmmmm....a picture of me & my friends? the only picture(s) i have of me & any of my friends, is from before I had my first child...lol...so that will have to do!!

(this picture is from 1999--Kahiki, Me, Foga, Sun, & G)

(1999--chillin' at 7's after a BYU-H dance)

(2001 at my daughter's 1st bday party--Marvel, Me w/Kacey, & Mary)

So those are a few pictures that I was able to salvage from what I do have left! The "new" friends that I've made since then, I haven't really had the chance, nor the time, to pose for a picture with them!! But if/when I do, i'll put them up!

Day #2

the meaning behind my BLOG NAME is pretty self explanatory! the name of my blog is THE MOE AIGA, which means, THE MOE FAMILY! Our little family consists of the patriarch of our home, which would be my husband, Tala Moe. Then there is myself, THE BOSS!! hehe And then ofcourse, our children: Kacey, who is 10yrs old now...Liliani, who is almost 4yrs old...Ma'atoe, who is 18months...Baby Moe(miscarriage)...and we are now expecting baby #5 in May 2011, woo hoo!! ;) Other than that, WE ARE A PRETTY HAPPY FAMILY!!!

{{my 30-day blog challenge!}}

I found this one off a random blog that I'm following and thought, "Hey, what the heck? Why NOT?"....so here it goes!! lol..


DAY 1- recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
DAY 2- the meaning behind your blog name
DAY 3- a picture of you and your friends
DAY 4- a habit that you wish you didn’t have
DAY 5- a picture of somewhere you've been to
DAY 6- favorite super hero and why
DAY 7- a picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
DAY 8- short term goals for this month and why
DAY 9- something you're proud of in the past few days
DAY 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad
DAY 11- another picture of you and your friends
DAY 12- how you found out about blogger and why you have one
DAY 13- a letter to someone who has hurt you recently
DAY 14- a picture of you and your family
DAY 15- put you ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play
DAY 16- another picture of yourself
DAY 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
DAY 18- plans/dreams/goals you have
DAY 19- nicknames you have and why you have them
DAY 20- someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future
DAY 21- a picture of something that makes you happy
DAY 22- what makes you different from everyone else
DAY 23- something you crave for a lot
DAY 24- a letter to your parents
DAY 25- what I would find in your bag
DAY 26- what do you think about your friends
DAY 27- why are you doing this 30 day challenge
DAY 28- a picture of you from last year and now, how have you changed since then?
DAY 29- in this past month, what have you learned
DAY 30- you favorite song
 
 
 
Day#1:
 

LOL.....DEFINITELY "NOT" A RECENT PICTURE OF ME...but, if I put up a recent one, i'd be scarred FOR LIFE!!! hahahahahaha! Soooooo, instead, I just put up a picture of myself that I WISH I looked like NOW...hahaha!!

1. I love having babies...just DISLIKE the whole morning sickness thing, but WHO DOESN'T??? lol
2. I hate when my kids are sick!
3. I love taking LOOOOOONG HOT showers.
4. I have the BEST HUSBAND EVER!!! hahahahahaha!!
5. Wish we still lived in......UTAH!! ;)
6. I love my new phone
7. I log onto Facebook just to play the games!! (pathetic, I know)
8. CANNOT WAIT to have our own home...hint, hint :)
9. I was born & raised in KAHUKU, HI, and never in my entire life have I ever jumped LAIE POINT!! lol
10. I miss all the GOOD FOOD in HAWAII!
11. Can't believe that it's pretty NORMAL nowdays for teens to have babies :(
12. NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT....BAAAAAAD!!
13. I MISS MY FAMILY!
14. I can cook a mean meal!! haha..
15. I'm having baby #5 in MAY 2011...ahhhhhhhh!!!

Sooooooo, there you have it!! I know it's been a while since I've blogged, but thanks to a dear friend who helped MAKEOVER my page, I will be doing it more often now!! ;) THANK YOU AGAIN!!!! Until tomorrow...TTFN!!

THAT'S IT?? WTH!?!

This week hasn't been a good one for me, as far as working out!! My "trainer" goes to school on Monday & Tuesday nights, so I tend to kinda "slack-off"...shhhhh, don't tell! hahahahahahaha...i mean, I DO work out, but I work out even more when he is home telling me what to do, & how long to do it for...PATHETIC, i know! But this morning, I had to go weigh-in for the week, and BOY DID IT SHOW!! LOL...i only lost .6 lbs, which is pretty much NOTHING to me! So, I was kinda angry & frustrated with myself for being so dang lazy!! What made it worse was the fact that everyone else in the group just walks, and cuts down on what they eat, and here I am, WORKING MY BUTT OFF(sometimes), and when we go to weigh in, they lose more than I did...ahhhhhhhh!!!

This morning, after the weigh-in, I came home and asked my husband, "Why is it that I WORK OUT HARD, and all they do is WALK, but yet they still lose more than I do?? I think I should just GO WALK with them too!!" HA....can you imagine the response?????? LOL....he told me, "So, are you telling me that you wanna just go walking with everyone else?? The one thing they do that helps them lose more than you is they CUT-BACK on their eating..." (and for those of you who REALLY do know me, I AM A JUNK-FOOD "JUNKIE"...like seriously!!) So my husband/eternal companion/BFF/"trainer" told me that I need to, for the next 2 weeks, stop eating the things I LOVE THE MOST......SWEETS!! He says 2 weeks, just so we can see if it will work for me, and if it doesn't, that means that I'm just NOT WORKING OUT HARD ENOUGH!!

With all that HONESTY from the LOVE OF MY LIFE, hahahahaha, we decided to go and buy our own scale(the kind that measures your BMI, water weight, & tracks weight history) cause I'm the type that LOVES to see the results RIGHT AWAY...he also got me a heartrate monitor/pedometer, which measures your pulse, the number of steps you take, how far you've ran or walked, and how many calories you burn. I was so excited that as soon as we got home, I opened up the scale and programmed everything, and jumped on it...DID NOT LIKE WHAT I SAW, because it was MORE than what I weighed in at this morning. So I went straight to the basement to start my work-out! I put on my "new" toy, and started running in place...more like SPRINTING to me, hahahaha! I ran for 3 miles, 1 hour & 11 minutes, burned 233 calories, took over 9,000 steps, and heart rate got up to 174...so I was going pretty good! After I was done, I was soaked in my own sweat, probably the hardest I've sweat in a LOOOOOOOOOONG TIME, hahaha. Anyways, I went and took a shower, and right after, jumped back onto the scale again, and to MY SURPRISE....in that short amount of time, I LOST 6lbs & 3 percent of body fat!! I was soooooooooo happy just to see that!! So from now on, because I know IT'S POSSIBLE, and because it really does PAY OFF, I am going to work HARD everytime!!! I PROMISE!! Anyhow, sorry for the long update, but it's almost been a week and thought you all would LOVE AN UPDATE!!! thanks for reading!! till next time.....tata for now!!

sLaCkEr!

I have been such a "SLACKER" lately!! I haven't been keeping up with my blog...i don't even remember the last thing I posted without scrolling down to see it :( But there have definitely been some things that have changed, I know that for sure...haha! Here are the changes:

--I recently joined a small group of SAMOAN people out here in Missouri in a BIGGEST LOSER challenge, so I am no longer doing this on my own!
--I have a new calling in church, in addition to my current calling as the librarian...i am now the Mia Maid advisor in the Young Women's program!! :)

--Last, but not least....probably one of my BIGGEST GOALS this year that I've accomplished, I am finally able to put wear my wedding ring again....whew!

So with all that out, this post is pretty much an "update" post, if you will! In an earlier post, I noted that I was doing "my own" BIGGEST LOSER challenge with my husband, and also stated what the end PRIZE would be. Well, that is actually still on....but I have now joined another BIGGEST LOSER challenge with 8 other SAMOAN people in our local community that are striving to better their lives by exercising, eating healthy, and losing weight. To join, all 9 of us paid $20 to the "pot". Every Saturday morning we weigh in....if you GAIN weight(regardless of how much), you pay $3 to the "pot"....if you LOSE weight, you don't owe anything!! However, if you are at a stand still, where you haven't GAINED or LOSS anything, you pay $2 to the "pot"! This competetion is going on for 3 months, so that "pot" could actually grow, and at the end of the 3 months, whoever has lost the most weight, wins the "pot"! As much as I would LOOOOOOOOOOVE to win the "pot", I will be happy just to lose the weight! But my husband's mentality is....YOU ARE GOING TO WIN, especially since I paid $20 to do this when I could do it for free!! hahahaha...but for me, I guess I like it better when there is competetion!!! So, I'll do my best to keep you all updated with my progress!! Oh yeah, I joined 2 weeks ago, and had my first official weigh-in this past Saturday and lost 3.8lbs, so hopefully the number on the scale keeps going DOWN, and the weight loss number keeps going UP! ;)

**As for my new calling in church, I'm enjoying it so far! I used to be the Valiant 9 teacher in Primary, was released, then called to be the ward librarian!! I LOVE IT...then a few weeks ago the bishop asked to talk to me, so I thought I was getting released....huh, come to find out, I was actually getting ANOTHER CALL!! (i'm not complaining or anything, hahaha) But anyways, it has been fun so far, and I hope it stays that way!! I love my Mia Maids already, and I've only taught them 2 Sundays. :)

***And lastly...........my wedding ring!! When I was pregnant with my daughter in 2006, I did have to remove my wedding ring, but was able to put it back on soon after I gave birth to my daughter. But with my son, I had to take it off when I was about 6 months pregnant because my finger was just TOOOOOO SWOLLEN!! (mind you, this pregnancy is when I got the BIGGEST I've ever been) After I had him, I tried to put my ring back on, but it wouldn't go pass my knuckle. I would keep trying every now & then, but no luck!! Since I've been working out these last 2 months or so, I guess it's starting to pay off, but I am able to wear my wedding ring again, after more than a year...ahhhhhhhh!!! So you can imagine how happy I was when it went on, LOL!!
**Other than all that, everything else has been the same!! In exactly a week from today, on Monday, May 17th, my one & only son will be turning 1...where has the time gone??? On his actualy birthday we are planning to just have a lil' something at home, but we are having a party for him on May 29th, so we've been kinda busy planning it! So, I will do my best to keep up on my posts...if not, you'll see one eventually!! lol...

WOW, i can't believe I DID IT!!!

I've decided that from now on, i'll do a weekly update instead of a daily one! Anyhow, this morning we got up at 6am to go running at an elementary school nearby. Yesterday we didn't get to workout due to a death in the extended family....and so because of that, my "personal trainer"/husband, told me that I had to run 3 miles today! I was like, WHAAAAAAAAAT?????? Are you kidding me? I "HATE" RUNNING...and you want me to run 3 WHOLE MILES??? The whole morning I was thinking, I am gonna die...I can't do this...I was seriously trying to think up a really good excuse for me to stop at either 1 1/2-2 miles in! And sad to say........I couldn't work up the courage to ask my "trainer" if I could just STOP and finish it later on in the day, cause 1) he woulda said "NO" anyway, & 2) like I said in a previous post, when it's time to work-out, he doesn't "give a rats!!" lol! Sooooooo, you know what I did???



I RAN ALL 3 MILES, without stopping!!! Wait, I did stop to take a tiny sip of water, and was right back at it to finish off the race...haha! But I really did finish those 3 miles without dropping to the ground, or making up some LAME excuse to stop! I mean, I have to admit, my feet were killing me, but that's what happens when I wear shoes that are too narrow for my WIDE feet, LOL. I was so proud of myself for FINISHING IT!! I haven't done that since I was a senior in highschool playing volleyball for my mother, who used to make us run from Malaekahana back to the highschool gym.(but I think that was only like a mile though) In the end, I was able to walk away with my head kinda held high, haha!

remember...

Remember my post back in January about the NO MORE FAST FOOD and what not?? hehehe...yah well, I have come to confess, that I GAVE IN to it already in March!! hahaha...the funny thing is, it was NOT hard to do, nor was it hard to continue, BUUUUUT, when you live in a house of more than 1 family in it, and those other families LOVE to buy fastfood for dinner, than ofcourse it WOULD BE HARD!! If you want to eat dinner, and don't have the money to go and buy something to make for your own lil' family, then you have to just eat what's there, or STARVE!! Sooooooooo, sad to say, that didn't last very long. But we don't eat it as much as we used too, so I guess it did help out.

Also, I don't think I put this in my post about THE BIGGEST LOSER, but I am not doing this ALONE....I am going up against my best friend/husband/eternal companion on our "BIGGEST LOSER" competetion. It's emabarassing for me to tell you all that my husband weighs less than I do, lol!! But, I'm pretty sure that if MEN were the ones having kids, they too would have the same problem...but I know my husband would do something about it alot sooner than I do, haha! I tend to make tons of excuses to NOT work-out...but nowdays, when it's time to work-out, my husband becomes my personal trainer and just doesn't "give a rats" about my pain, and how tired I get...haha!! (which is fine by me) If I really do want this(the weight loss & the family trip) than I WILL DO WHATEVER I HAVE TOO to get it!! Anyways, I just thought I'd come & give a little update on my goals that I've posted from earlier in the year!! Enjoy!!

~DaY 2~

OUCH...ugh...**yawn**!! And that was only from DAY #2...i still got about 4 months left to reach my goal weight, OH BOY! So this morning I worked out at 5am, this time doing some "mountain climbers", some lunges, & the thing I "hate" to do the most..RUNNING, lol. Buuuuuuuut, if it's going to help me get to where I will be happy with myself, then I guess it's ok with me! Anyways, had a good workout this morning, got showered and ready to take the hubby to work and waited for the little girl that I just started watching last week to come over.

The rest of the day turned out to be a pretty good one I'd say...that is until I go to pick up my husband from work, and he tells me, "If I get done with my test early tonite, then we are going to work-out AGAIN"..................Soooooooooo NOT the words I was wanting to hear from him, lol. I worked out already in the morning, why do I have to do it again? Yes, I am only on day 2, but already complaining....STORY OF MY LIFE!! lol...but ANYWAYS, for those of you who DO NOT know my husband, I'd feel sorry for ME TOO, LMBO!!! j/k! He, unlike MYSELF, loves to workout...and when he is working someone else out, he will make you go till you are about ready to fall FLAT ON YOUR FACE. Ok, so maybe I didn't fall on my face, but if he made me punch that punching bag one more time, I woulda made HIM fall on HIS face!! bahahahahahaha...j/k babe!! You know I would NEVER do something like that.

.....all in all, I made it through day #2, and I am in such {{PAIN}} right now! But NO PAIN, NO GAIN right?? GO HARD or GO HOME.....right now, all I feel like doing is just GOING TO BED!! That is my blog for today...more to come possibly tomorrow!! lol...

--the BIGGEST LOSER--

Ever since there have been POLYNESIAN people on the show, I have been a dedicated fan of THE BIGGEST LOSER!! I love watching the show every Tuesday night from 7pm-9pm, lol. What makes it even better, is the fact that the polys' do such a good job on the "ranch". For some odd reason, it seems harder to lose the weight at HOME with family around, than it is to do it on the "ranch" with a bunch of strangers, and Jillian & Bob!! My guess is, with all the temptations...the good polynesian food, the junk food, the peer pressure, LOL, etc...that's what makes it hard!! But if we were disciplined enough, it wouldn't be all that bad now, wouldn't it? Well, for me, my biggest WEAKNESS is JUNKFOOD....but who doesn't love to eat it right? I have such a BAD HABIT of ALWAYS splurging on sweets, and use my kids as an excuse for buying em' too :( BUT NOT ANYMORE!!! I vow to CONTROL my eating habits, especially when it comes to that!!

Soooooo, with all that said, I have taken upon myself, the challenge of being A "BIG LOSER"!!! hahaha, funny how when you NORMALLY use those terms, it doesn't mean anything good. But in MY CASE, it will probably help me to be a much happier wife, mother, friend, daughter, teacher, & person....cause when I am HAPPY with MYSELF, it makes life much easier to live!! Because I have started this blog, I thought "what a perfect place" for me to record my progress from beginning to end!! So, as of today, April 12th 2010, I weighed in at 2--#(that is for me to know, and you to NEVER find out, LOL)...my goal is get back down to around 195# by August 8th, before I leave to Utah! If...oh wait, hold up, "WHEN" I accomplish that goal, my husband has agreed to take our lil' family on a well-deserved trip to HAWAII since my 2 youngest have not been yet...YAY!! My husband told me that in the only way he thinks I will actually DO THIS & STICK TO IT, is if there is a BIG REWARD or PRIZE in the end, which he's mostly right...LOL! And if I don't accomplish my goal by August 8th, then our family will only be going to Vegas for our family trip, which is still fine with me, but come on....I'd rather be in Hawaii!! lol

This morning was my first day, and I woke up at 5am....at least the alarm went off at 5am, lol! I got out of bed at about 5:20ish...and my husband had me do some leg workouts!! It's been a while, so I was being kinda sluggish, but I did everything he told me too!! I'm proud of myself!! So from here on out, I will be keeping track of my weight loss/gain, hahaha, here on my blog!! GO TEAM ARI!!! lol

My new FAVORITE thing to do!!!

Man, it's been over a month since I last posted...what a SLACKER!! lol...anyways, not much has gone on, or changed. Except for maybe the fact that I've found a "new" HOBBY, and I say "new" because it's NEW to ME, but people have been doing it for a long time now! I've just recently learned how to do it in a way that will save me & my family alot of $$MOOLAH$$, hahaha! (now who DOESN'T want to learn how to do that? didn't think so!) Anyways, I've finally learned how to COUPON SHOP!!! I used to see people post pics of the stuff that they got for FREE or less than $1, and they had ALOT of it too...but I used to wonder, HOW THE HECK DID THEY DO THAT??!!?? I wanna know how to get FREE STUFF from the store, I'm tired of paying an arm & a leg(not really, but you get the idea) for things that you can get for FREEEEEEEEEEE!!! Sooooooo, this lady that I go to church with told me about a workshop that her friend was doing, and I jumped at that opportunity fast! It's called Coupon $ense...and they help to inform you of the local sales that are going on in your area, what stores the sale is at, what coupons to use, and the FINAL PRICE you pay for an item before you walk out of the store. And so far, I've only gotten FREE STUFF or stuff for under $1, and I LOOOOOOOOVE IT!!! *****

will post more later....sorry! :(

..vAlEnTiNeS dAy..

 
Valentines Day....i think of the color red, hearts, chocolate candies, roses, cupid, & my significant other!! Ever since I was young, my mom used to ALWAYS make me & my siblings our own little valentines gift bags with all kinds of goodies, candies, & a stuffed bear!!! I would take my little valentines cards for all my classmates with me to school, and hand them out one by one...and wait to get all mines from everyone else. It was so fun to have valentines in school....and as I got older, my mom stopped making our little gift bags for us, and I no longer took any valentines day cards with me to school anymore....but being in HIGH SCHOOL, who would want to hand out lil' v-day cards anyways, right?!? haha...
 
Nowdays, Valentines Day is honestly.....JUST ANOTHER DAY!!! Except for the fact that I now have children of my own, I try & carry on my mother's tradition and give each of my own kids their little Valentines gift so they feel special on Valentines day. My 9yr old gets her own cards ready for her class at school by writing everyone's names on them....and this year we are making MUDDY BUDDIES and putting them in little Valentines chinese take-out boxes...too cute!

~MOMMA'z BOY~

Soooooooo, I have 2 "men" in MY life....the first would be my one & only ETERNAL COMPANION!! And the second, ofcourse, would also be my one & only BABY BOY, Ma'atoe Aveau Moe! I can't believe how fast time has gone by...he is going to be 9months on the 17th of this month! He is literally a MOMMA'z boy...he looks like me, has my skin-tone, and he always wants his MA MA...but he has his daddy's temper!! Don't let his cute lil' innocent smile FOOL YOU!! hahaha...j/k! He is really, really, REALLY calm compared to our 3yr old when she was his age, OMG. But, that could be blamed, ofcourse, ON HER DADDY...he was always trying to "ROUGH" her up so she could be TOUGH...i think he roughed her up a lil' TOO MUCH, thanks babe! Anyways, I wanted to write this blog to kinda help me & my son to remember some of the milestones, since I've been sooooo bad with keeping up with the baby book thing! Soooooo, here it goes:
                                     

**at 8 1/2 months**has been crying MA MA from day 1**love to eat**can eat 2 BIG jars of baby food in one sitting**loves his sisters**is daddy's lil' man**he does a lil' ARMY CRAWL when he is too lazy to actually crawl**he weighs about 30lbs, which is about how much his 3yr old sister weighs now, haha&**he loves music**loves to TALK STORY**always SMILES really big**will eat just about ANYTHING edible you put in his mouth, along with anything that is UN-edible, lol**such a SQUISHY, CUDDLE-BUG**has 4 teeth so far that cut through his gums**claps his hands**is just a CHILL baby**more to come!!

no more FAST FOOD for me!!

       


:( yup, thats right, I SAID NO MORE FAST FOOD!! before the year 2009 ended, we decided that our new year's resolution would be to see how long we can go without EATING OUT in 2010...that means NO McDonalds, Burger King, Taco Bell, Sonic, Arby's, Wendy's, and also no eating at any restaurants either!! So even on "special" occasions when everyone else in our house goes out to eat somewhere, we get to MAKE something to eat at home!! Not only are we trying to eat a little healthier, but we are also trying to see how much $$$ we can save too. We used to spend at least $30/week just eating out, but that also included feeding our kids too...but still, why eat out when you can make something that may taste even better at home?? Anyways, we've been doing good so far...it's actually not as HARD as I anticipated it to be. My husband fell in LOVE with the THIRD POUND burgers from McDonald's, but after watching the BIGGEST LOSER, he said he doesn't want to eat another one of those ever again, but we'll see huh?? HAHA...anyways, with that said, HERE WE GO!!! :)

aNoThEr YeAr GoNe By...

Wow, I am "officially" NO LONGER IN MY 20's!! aghhhhhhhhhh...lol! I mean, it doesn't feel any different from 29, but it's the fact that the number just went up one...i guess i'm just in DENIAL of being a 30yr old! I wish I was 20 again....SOMETIMES!! But I am very happy with where I am in life right now...i have the BEST ETERNAL COMPANION, (at least I think so), and we have 3 beautiful kids that bring sooooooo much JOY into our lives, what more could I ask for right? hahaha...

Anyway...my day started out with my 8month old son waking up at 6am in his crib saying "ba ba ba ba"....in baby language, for him that means he is ready for his BOTTLE, haha! If his dad wakes up and comes to get him outta his crib, he will tell his dad, "mama mama" meaning "i want you to give ME to my MOMMY....NOW" bahahahahaha!!! this kid is too hilarious, cracks me up everytime. After waking up to change his diaper then make his bottle, I laid him back down to eat, then I went back down to shut my eyes again....then my 9yr old comes in with her GIFT for me wanting me to open it RIGHT NOW, so I had to sit up again & open it, lol. She gave me a little Valentine puppy, a bag of combos, & a marshmallow lollipop sucker that her grandma helped her pick out. We then got ready to go to church at 12:30pm, then out the door we went. Being that my birthday was on a Sunday this year, we couldn't go out to eat anywhere, but even if it wasn't Sunday, we made a NEW YEAR's RESOLUTION that we will NOT EAT OUT for this year...or at least see how long we can go without doing so!! That means, NO FAST FOOD, NO RESTAURANTS, NO ANYTHING like that!! (i'll save that for ANOTHER entry, haha) Anyways, so after church we came home and my husband made meatloaf, corn, rice, & a green bean casserole, while my daughter Kacey made the birthday cake. It was a really good birthday meal, i'd say...YUMMY!! Besides all that, my parents sent us a box of stuff for the kids, and birthday stuff for me too!! No matter HOW OLD I get, my parents still send me stuff...or maybe it's just because i'm THE ONLY child that lives MILES & MILES away from them, LOL! Either way, they still spoil me on my birthdays, haha. All in all though, I'd say I had AN AWESOME 30th BIRTHDAY!!! Thanks to my family!! And that is why I love them soooooo much!!!

...pLaYiN' vOlLeYbAlL...

                                             

Playing volleyball has been a part of my life since I was VERY, VERY young!! I grew up going to all my mom's volleyball practices when she used to coach at KAHUKU HIGH SCHOOL!! I also started playing club ball at a young age as well, and had alot of fun doing so!! When I reached junior high, I played JV my freshman year, then my mom pulled me & a couple of other girls up to Varsity my sophomore year. It was a good experience to play with the older girls! We didn't really go very far in the 3 years that I played varsity ball, but we had fun as a team. After graduating, I really wanted to go to school somewhere to play volleyball, but was also caught up in some other STUPID stuff that just got me into more trouble. Sooooo instead of going on to play ANYWHERE, i ended up helping with a club that they had out in KAHUKU. I got pregnant with my first child and put on a bunch of weight that I never knew I could gain...LOL!! Since then, I just try to go and play whenever I have the chance. Nowdays, with 3 kids, no job, & alot of time on my hands, I have the opportunity to play in a league out here in Missouri with a friend of mines from here and we just have fun!! It's like my "ME" time that my husband lets me have...thanks my love!! ;) But you know what else is funny?? 3 kids & 100 pounds later, I think I play better now than I did in highschool, bahahaha!! I'm serious though!! I actually get UP & HIT the ball, no kidding!! If i had a camera I would put pics/videos up for proof, but I also don't think that would be APPROPRIATE...haha!!

I MISS UTAH!!

In the beginning of 2001, my dad received a call from one of his missionary companions who lives in Utah. He owns his own marble fabricating company, and they make vanities, tubs, & stuff like that. Anyways, he called to see if my dad wanted to fly out to Utah & work for him for a little while & see how he likes it out there. Soooooo, with work being slow back in Hawaii at the time for him, he figured, it wouldn't HURT to TRY it out...and that is exactly what he did! He left for Utah in March of 2001, and was working for his friend. About a month later, he calls home & says that he thinks it would be good if our family moved out to Utah! **aghhhhhhh**

Being that I was born & raised in Hawaii, I didn't even want to leave, AT ALL!! That is where my FAMILY & FRIENDS were at...that is the ONLY HOME that I knew! Buuuuuuuut, I guess Heavenly Father knew that we needed some kinda "change" in our lives! At the time, it was just me, mom, my sister, & my daughter living back home at the time cause my brother JR was serving his 2yr mission in San Francisco & Alika was in the army in Texas! So we moved all our stuff out of the house, and had to start fixing it up to either RENT or SELL....it was a very SAD process cause that is the home that I grew up in ever since I was a year old!! Anyway, once all that was done, we all got on the flight to move to Utah! When we got to Utah, is was pretty HOT...a much different kinda HOT than from Hawaii. Soon after we moved out there, that is when 9/11 happened! It was such a sad, sad day! I remember I was at the doctor's office for my daughter, and it was all over the news!! What a sad time for all those people who lost their lives in that tragedy, and for the families with lost loved ones! It's pretty crazy, because now, the love of my life's birthday just so happens to fall on 9/11....and ever since what happened, he doesn't really like to celebrate HIS day anymore!

Anyhow, back on subject, we've lived in Utah ever since 2001! I met my best friend, who would soon turn out to be my ETERNAL COMPANION in July 2004, after searching for 3 years...he just didn't know it yet!! hahaha...I had to ask him out on our first date, and lucky for me, he said YES! So went to watch "WHITE CHICKS"...with my daughter & my cousin Keamalu...lol! We dated for about 1 1/2 yrs, before we got married....we then got our own place right after! We lived there in our own apartment for a little over 2 yrs, before making the decision to move out here to MISSOURI, where my husband is from.

Some of things I miss about Utah, is how CLOSE everything is!! There were grocery stores right down the street...out here, we only have 1 that is close by, and because of that, we pay an "arm & a leg" sometimes. I miss the food...i miss the OREM 9th ward...i miss having MY family nearby...i miss alot of things in Utah!! But, we are stuck here, at least until my husband gets his Bachelor's degree! Sooooo, I'm gonna make the MOST of our time out here, and make sure my kids are HAPPY!! :)

the big "30" soon!!

OMG...I can't believe that I only have a week left of being in my 20's, then I will officially be a 30yr old, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! But AGE AIN'T NOTHING BUT A NUMBER anyway, right?? lol...and ofcourse, just because my husband is a little over 2 years younger than me, he WOULD BE the one counting the days until i'm, according to him, an "OLD LADY"!! hahaha, WHATEVER...without this OLD LADY, you wouldn't be the MAN you are today my love!! bahahahahaha...love you hun!! anyways, just thought i'd come & share some thoughts on how i feel about turning the big 3-0 in a week!!

..mY gOaLs FoR tHiS yEaR, 2010..

Ok, so being that it is the first month of a NEW YEAR, i'm sure that everyone has been thinking about or planning out what your goals will be for this lovely new year!! And as most of us know, we don't ALWAYS follow through with it, RIGHT?!?!? Well, this year, I'm making it MY goal to make some NEW GOALS, and to actually FOLLOW THROUGH with it this time around! First off, I have promised my children to be a better MOTHER to them!! To tell them I LOVE YOU every single day of their life, and to have a better relationship with each one of them. Secondly, I would LOOOOOOOVE to drop ALOT of this dang weight that I've gained having 3 kids, hahaha!!! Hmmmmmmm, let's see...i'm gonna be REAL about it and say that I'd like to at least lose 40-50lbs for now....and if I can accomplish that, then I'll add more to those numbers! And last, but not least...(this one pretty much goes along with #2)...my family is gonna start eating more HEALTHY this year!! Oh yah, BTW, as HUSBAND & WIFE, we have decided that we are not eating ANY FAST FOOD this year!!! whew, it's been good so far!! Alot easier than we had anticipated, so I think we will do just fine!! I think that about sums it all up for now....so, I'll have an update blog, maybe in about 3 months to see where I'm at with all this!! ;)

{{LiFe In ZiOn}}

As most of you may know, we now reside in Independence, Missouri, or as most people...the ones that live here would call it, ZION!! We moved here back in March 2008 from Orem, Utah! In February 2008, we flew out here as a family to come & surprise my mother-in-law for her birthday, and just to come & visit the family!!! Well, it must've been a good trip because when we got back home to Utah, my husband & I decided that it would be a good idea if we moved our family to Missouri so we could save some money, and possibly further our education. So we moved here on March 11, 2008, which is Tala's baby sister Lupe's birthday....not only did WE move back here, but so did the Yamauchi family, Sose & Loa! They were living in Laie, Hawaii for a couple months with Sose's family, but decided it would be better for them if they moved back to Missouri too. So.......here we all are, one BIG, HAPPY FAMILY living in ZION!! Since then, we have had an addition to our lil' family. We finally had our baby boy in May 2009!! His name is Ma'atoe Aveau Moe, and he is now almost 8 months old, but looks like he is almost 2, bahahahahahaha!! Tala is back in school now, working on getting his Bachelor's degree in Business. I am just a stay-at-home mother for now....and lovin' every second of it! Kacey is in the 4th grade at Blue Hills Elementary school, and she loves going to school!! We attend the Blue Mills ward here in Independence...i love the ward. I've made alot of NEW friends out here, and I've also grown to like it here alot more than I thought I would!! Other than all that, LIFE IS GREAT!!! Till' next time....

...tHe KiDs...

hmmmmmm, ok where to start!! our oldest child is 9yrs old...gonna be 10 this year!! she was actually born in Kahuku, HI on August 31, 2000. I actually had her before I met my eternal companion. I named her Kacey Ologa AwakeaU'iO-Pi'ilani Fonoimoana. She weighed 8lbs 2oz, and was 21 1/2" long with a conehead. She was such a GOOD baby, everybody loved her! Now she is about to turn 10, and I can't believe how fast time has gone by. My lil' baby is a BIG GIRL now....she is such a GREAT BIG HELP to me with her younger siblings, and for that I AM SO GRATEFUL!! I LOVE YOU SWEETHEART!!

**our 2nd child, was born in Provo, UT!! This one was kind of an unexpected surprise to us...cause when I told my husband that I was pregnant, his reaction was more like an ANGRY, in SHOCK, WHAT AM I GOING TO DO kinda reaction..LOL!! But when it actually sank in that we were having another baby, he was HAPPY & EXCITED. Being pregnant the 2nd time around, I thought it would be a breeze for me, cause with my first, I had the morning(more like ALL DAY LONG) sickness really bad!! I lost alot of weight in the beginning, couldn't hold ANYTHING down. But as soon as that sickness went away in the 3rd trimester, I was eating EVERYTHING & ANYTHING I could get my hands on pretty much, hahaha!! I gained a whopping 70+ pounds...WHOA!! Buuuuuut, my 2nd pregnancy was actually WORSE than the 1st. I was in & out of the hospital, dehydrated all the time, they had to put me on an IV more than twice...to the point where I had to go do same-day surgery to get a PIC line put into my arm so they wouldn't have to keep poking my veins in my hand for the IV!! But that didn't last long cause my arm was starting to swell, and they realized that it was getting infected. So they took the PIC line out, and I had to just stick it out the rest of the pregnancy. I gave birth to our 2nd baby girl on November 11, 2006(Veteran's Day)...she weighed the same as I did when I was born...7 lbs 13oz, and she was 19 1/2" long. We named her Liliani(after my mother-in-law) Teuila(my Samoan middle name) Moe. It was funny because when we went to do the ultrasound to find out what we were having, the doc told us it was a GIRL...my husband was NOT HAPPY AT ALL!! He was DEAD-SET on having a SON...so in the room, he got silent when the doc said that!! bahahahahaha....but when i had her, she came out looking just like HER DADDY!!! LOL....and now, 3yrs later, she acts just like him too!! But she is the LIFE of our LIL' FAMILY, I wouldn't have it any other way!!!

**Last, but not least, our 3rd child was born in Independence, MO!!! (yup, I had all 3 kids in 3 different states) LOL...if there is a #4, I guess we'll have to move so I can keep up the tradition!! bahahahahahaha, YAH RIGHT!! anyways, this pregnancy was actually pretty SMOOTH compared to the other 2...i still threw up & what not, but it was NOTHING like before!! the only difference was, this was the pregnancy that i got THE BIGGEST!! at our 20week check up we did the ultrasound...and the doc asked if we wanted to know what it was, we said YES!! as soon as she slid the camera thing between the baby's legs, we already knew it was a BOY because we could see his FAMILY JEWELS already....his dad's first comment was, WOW, MY SON HAS SOME BIG BALLS, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!! Anyways, my due date this time was May 31, 2009...but I had him exactly 2 weeks early! My water broke on May 16, while I was at home watching TV, so we went in to the hospital at about 11:30pm, but I didn't have him until 11:25am the next morning because he just WOULD NOT drop lower!! He weighed in at a WHOPPING 9lbs 8oz, and was 22" long...my BIGGEST BABY yet!! But he is such a MELLOW baby, I LOVE IT!!!

Each one of my kids have their very own personality, and they are all different in their own ways!!! But I wouldn't trade them for ANYTHING in the world!! I love you my children!!!