IT'S A.......?????

Sooooo, wanna hear a funny story???? Well, it has been a VERY LONG TIME, but on my last post, i had stated that I was about to find out the gender of our baby soon. Well, I went in for my ultrasound as normal, and when it was time for them to tell me the "sex" of my baby, the umbilical cord was RIGHT BETWEEN the baby's legs(JUST GREAT!) But, the ultrasound tech was so sure she could still figure it out by getting AROUND the umbilical cord....so i was like, "OK!" :) So she kept pushing on my stomach, trying to get AROUND the cord between the baby's legs, and she tells me, her EXACT WORDS, "It looks like your having a girl!" And to be honest, with my first two girls, i got REALLY SICK with them, and at the beginning of THIS pregnancy, it started out really bad for me!! I was throwing up EVERYTHING....so the doctor gave me some nausea medicine that WORKED LIKE A CHARM :) i was HAPPY & EATING AGAIN in NO TIME!! hahahaha...anyways, because of my history with morning sickness, i just assumed it was ANOTHER BABY GIRL!! But for some odd reason, when the ultrasound tech told me it was a girl, i had the strangest feeling that it was NOT a girl!! SERIOUSLY!!! When we were at home later that same night, my husband told me that I could now go shopping for clothes now that we know its a girl...but i told him, "I have the strangest feeling that its a BOY!"...and he just kinda laughed it off!! So we went along for the next 20 weeks thinking we was having a girl right? I bought some cute little "girl" outfits and everything....anyways, come my 37th week of pregnancy, I had another scheduled ultrasound to see how big baby was because boy was i packing on the pounds!! LOL...so they figured that baby was, at the time, measuring about 8lbs, almost 9...and i was only 37 weeks, still had 3 more to go!! But when I saw my OB, he told me, "Oh, sometimes the ultrasound isn't very accurate on baby's size, so baby is probably only about 7lbs or so!" OKAY!!! hahahahahahahahahahaha....anyhow, back to the ultrasound....when she got all her measurements and whatever else SHE needed, i asked her, "Could you PLEASE just check ONE LAST TIME to make sure that IT is still a GIRL??? Just to make sure??" And she said OFCOURSE!! So she started scanning, looking, scoping it out...and then she goes, "I have a surprise for you!!" I just shook my head and said OH PLEASE DON'T SAY THAT NOW!!! She says, "You are actually having A BOY!! Unless your daughter has a BIG MASS between her legs, THAT is A BOY!!" ROTFLMBO!!!! i didn't know what to think!! i wasn't MAD, i was just thinking WHAT THE HECK just happened?? lol...now mind you, the night before my last ultrasound, I took it upon myself, to wash the BRAND NEW BABY "GIRL" clothes i had bought for the baby that i was told, was going to be a girl!! Anyways, right after my appointment, i was going to call my husband and tell him the "news"...but since he worked right there by my doctor's office, i decided it would be better if i went there to tell him face-to-face. So i went in, walked straight to his office, and sat down....he was smiling and asking, "how did it go??" lol...i looked at him and said, I HAVE A SURPRISE!! and he was like, "WHAT??" all i had to say was, "You remember how I told you I didn't want to buy ALOT of babygirl stuff because I had a strange feeling it was a BOY??" His eyes got big, and his jaw dropped, and he was like NO WAY??? I said YUP, ITS A BOY!!! I couldn't really tell if he was HAPPY or SAD, but i know that he was definitely SHOCKED!! hahahaha...we were planning on a girl, and was very excited about it too! But when I had my baby boy,(delivery story to come LATER!!) I IMMEDIATELY FELL HEAD OVER HEELS "IN LOVE" all over again!!! He has a DISTINCTIVE BEAUTY MARK on his left eye lid that makes him PERFECT for ME!! I love this little boy so much, and wouldn't trade him for the world!! He weighed 10lbs 6oz, and was 21 1/2" long!! I now have my 2 girls, and 2 boys, and am the happiest mommy in the world :) I LOVE MY BABIES!!!

..ready to share..

This post is more of a GET IT OFF MY CHEST/READY TO SHARE post!! Sooooooo, i'm not trying to sound selffish or anything, because I know there are people out there that are NOT ABLE to experience the whole "pregnancy" thing, and enjoy the "JOYS" of giving birth to your own child, and bringing that little spirit into this CRAZY WORLD...trust me, if I could, I would be a surrogate for some of you, but with how sick I get, I just can't!! :(

Moving on, as of right now, I have 3 children....2 girls, & my lil' man! In late July, I missed my period, and took a HPT which turned out to be positive! I wasn't sure, so i did like 4 more tests, and they all turned out positive!! And no, I didn't spend all my money on those pricey tests, I just went to the DOLLAR TREE here, and they sell pregnancy tests for only $1....and when you go to THE WOMEN'S CLINIC here, they use the EXACT same test too! The nurse there told me that if I get a positive on one of them cheapy tests, it's most likely to be right....so I took her up on it! So it was confirmed that I was pregnant, and was due to give birth in March 2011. I was excited!!! I LOVE BABIES, always have, since I was a little girl. Anyways, it was August, I hadn't been to a doctor yet because I was waiting for my medicaid card to come in the mail, and me & my 3 kids were getting ready to fly to UTAH for my cousin's wedding. As soon as AUGUST came, I noticed that I had started spotting a little....then spotting ALOT....then FULL ON bleeding. So on Sunday, August 8, 2010, my husband took me in to the emergency room just to check if everything was ok. I already thought I lost the baby, but when they did an ultrasound(which I couldn't even watch) they told me that everything was ok, baby was fine, and had a heartbeat! WHEW, i was somewhat relieved, but was still very ADAMANT about taking my trip to UTAH to be with MY FAMILY!

Ofcourse, before we left the hospital, my husband had me ask the doctor if it was still ok for ME to fly in my condition....mind you, MY HUSBAND WAS TOTALLY AGAINST ME EVEN GOING, which is very understandable! Anyways, the nurse told me that it should be just fine, as long as I stay hydrated during the flight, because with the cabin pressure of the plane, I can get really dehydrated, and that is not a good thing! So, the next morning, we were scheduled to depart KANSAS CITY, and before my husband left for work, he begged me not to go one last time, but I SAID "NO"...and it's probably something that I'll never forgive myself for EVER!!!!!!!! So we left MISSOURI, heading for UTAH...and i followed the nurse's advice about staying hydrated during the flight. As soon as we landed in UTAH, i just had a bad feeling that something was going to go very wrong!! We met my mom by the baggage claim, and started on our way to their home in OREM, which is, depending on traffic, about a 45min drive from the airport. So, as we were driving, I started having light contractions...and I thought, OH NO, please don't do this!!!!! The bumpy roads weren't helping it AT ALL either, so you can only imagine how i felt. As soon as we pulled into my parents driveway, I opened my door, stood up to get out of the car...but as soon as I stood up, blood just came gushing out all over my legs....(sorry, TMI, i know!!!) All I said to my mom was, "MOM, YOU NEED TO TAKE ME TO THE ER, NOW!!!" But ofcourse I wasn't gonna go with all that blood all over me, so I went inside to wash off and change my clothes. To make a long story short, we spent the whole evening in the ER, mostly just waiting for doctors to show up, but when they did a vaginal ultrasound, they found NO HEARTBEAT anymore :( At the time, the only thing I could think of was, OH NO, MY HUSBAND IS GOING TO BE SO UPSET WITH ME!!!! WHAT HAVE I DONE??!!??!! I couldn't even work up the courage to call him and tell him what happened...i had to text my sis-in-law and have her tell him for me!!! He did not want to talk to me, in fact, didn't want me to COME BACK!!! But in the early morning hours the next day, he called me and we cried together on the phone...he was very hurt, and I don't blame him for being upset with me!!! He was able to forgive me, and we talked things over....we now plan to TRY and make a trip out to UTAH every year to visit the resting spot of our ANGEL BABY, which BTW, is at my parents home!! (The doctor said that I PASSED everything in the ER, but the next day, I passed something that WAS NOT A BLOOD CLOT....so I got a little trinket box and buried it in parent's backyard!!!)

Anyhow, I NEVER, EVER, EVER thought it would ever happen to me!!! But it did....and some days, I regret taking that trip!! My mom later told me that I could have called the airline and had my ticket changed with NO FEES charged if I had notice from my doctor, WHICH I WISH I HAD KNOWN SOONER, but what can we do??!!? I will always remember my lil' ANGEL baby!!! And now, I am 17 weeks pregnant again, this time, everything is going well!! I find out what I'm having on the 30th of this month, due to give birth in MAY 2011...so we're excited!!!

~THE LATEST~

There are a few things that have happened in the last month or so that I haven't BLOGGED!!!

1. Our middle child, LILIANI, turned 4 yrs old on Veteran's Day, November 11.
2. We had a GREAT THANKSGIVING meal with my husband's family here in MISSOURI!! (but I miss having my mom's cooking, lol)
3. We figured we'd go check out Walmart at midnite on BLACK FRIDAY, and let's just say, NEVER AGAIN, LOL!!
4. On THANKSGIVING DAY, it was also our 5-year anniversary of marriage...
5. We, along with our kids, spent a day/night at a hotel for our anniversary! The kids had so much in the pool, haha!

Yeah, it's been a pretty busy month, KINDA, haha! Anyways, that's the happs FOR NOW....till next time!!

..failure..

LOL, what a complete FAILURE!!! I couldn't even finish my 30-day challenge...my computer time was more-so used for other sites, such as: #1-FACEBOOK, #2-FACEBOOK, & #3-FACEBOOK!!! how terrible is that?? it's actually pretty embarrassing if you ask ME....my time could be well spent doing other PRODUCTIVE things, like helping my 4yr old learn her numbers, ABC's, write her name, and stuff like that....or, spend time with my son teaching him the same things, or at least getting a HEADSTART on it anyway! i can't blame the pregnancy, because all I would have to do is sit in front of a computer & BLOG...haha! anyways, LIFE GOES ON right?? ;)

DAY #8 (short term goals for this month & why)

hmmmmmmmmm, that would probably have to be FINISHING THIS BLOG CHALLENGE that i've started, LOL!! that is one of them...another would be to be a BETTER, LOVING MOTHER to my kids!!

didn't think it would be so difficult, LMBO!!

OH-EM-GEE...the last time i posted was almost a week ago, and that was DAY #7 of my blog challenge I've been trying to do, haha. I've got 6 days that I need to catch up on...Before I even started that challenge, and the reason WHY i even started it, is because I told myself, "Self, you are no longer going to be a slacker ANYMORE!! We are going to start this blog challenge, finishing it in exactly 30 days." Well, not that I CAN'T still finish it in 30 days, its just the fact that I also told myself that i would get on and post a blog once-a-day!! So here are my EXCUSES.....

1. I'M PREGNANT.....nuff sed!! haha
2. I have 2 kids under the age of 5 that belong to me, PLUS, another 2 more under the age of 3, that DO NOT belong to me that I have to watch during the day, so that makes 4 kids all under the age of 5, you figure it out....yup, THIS reason alone should explain my SLACKING huh?? lol
3. It's not like I don't get on the computer....it's just that I spend more time on FB!! (something that needs to become a part of my "new years resolution!! haha)
4. I get real LAZY....you should see my room!! I, along with my kids, took a trip to UTAH back in AUGUST!! Yeah, our room is still a HUGE MESS from then...and mind you, I'm a person that ABSOLUTELY, POSITIVELY, CANNOT STAND messy rooms, houses, cars, or anything like that!!!!
5. And last, but not least, when I was just READING the blog challenge, I thought to myself, ahhhhhhhhh, this will be a BREEZE!!! psssshhhhh, yah right!! i hate posting pics of myself, and all that stuff....but I HAVE TO FINISH IT, I'M NOT GONNA QUIT!!! Sooooo, now that I've given my excuses, I will catch up with my blog, and hope you enjoy!!! ;)

DAY #7: (pic of something/someone that has a big impact on you)

These 4 people down below are the people that make a BIG IMPACT on me because I don't know where exactly I would be if I didn't have them in MY LIFE!! They are the reason I wake up every morning (even though some mornings it's a little earlier than I'd like), but hey, I wouldn't change that for anything. I guess we're doing a pretty good job if Heavenly Father is trusting us with another one of His choice SPIRITS in the next 6 months :)

Ma'atoe (18months)

Kacey (10yrs)

Liliani (4yrs)

the LOVE OF MY LIFE!!